yesterday, i was sitting on the porch with my dad, listening to my ipod, just watching the ocean.
i discovered that i have this tendency to hum with my music; almost subconsciously, but then not, because i noticed and almost apologized to my dad, because he was reading. anyways, it reminded me of a time when i was in fourth grade i believe and my brothers and i had some friends over and we were all just playing, having a good time. and then i decided to go get my CD player because i had this erg to listen to my new CD. so i get it, and i start playing the music, and then i start singing at the top of my lungs, and my mom looks and me and gets angry and says sarah stop singing and im like...why? and she said to me, no one here wants to listen to you sing what the rest of us cant hear. still, i didnt understand, so i kept singing. quietly, of course. but at the time, i didnt understand that i was the only one who could hear the music.
maybe thats the way that i live my live. singing for myself. i dont think about what other people can or cannot hear. its always been for my benefit. isnt my voice good enough for everyone else?

Blog Number Two: 2008

today is july 8th, 2008.
and let me tell you something awesome: my cousin lauren and shaggy are about to have a child. yes, a baby.
it is soo exciting.
shesss pushhinggg!
anyway...the year 2008 has been fairly eventful. ive done a lot of things. i made it through the school year, barely, but i made it. everyone was lucky i didnt kill some of my teachers. i made new friends, like katlin, who is basically one of my best friends ever.
i hate watching scrubs. i think it is extremely dumb.
babiesssss.
i love them. i cannot wait. i claimed the babysitting long ago.
next week our family has a beach house in galveston(bleeeh) but i dont think it will be too bad.
there is this guy that my brother lives with, and he is one of the greatest guys i have ever met, but i also have a tendancy to hyperbolize.
hahhaaaa.
thats alll.